UnDerEstiMated-OverEstiMating

Luahan rasa x puas ati ngan network in UTPu =P haha… this was like, almost a month ago?? Tapi xde laa seganas mane pn… ni br from the tip of d iceberg hoho… kalo laa those people (read: the powers that be a.k.a ITMS+management) bleh dengar complaints yg dtg dari hati aku… factor in with the sumpah seranah yang mengisi ayat2 tu… hoho…   

         

            I hope I don’t get called to my own group’s meeting. Not yet anyhow. Why can’t the powers that be see, how important it is for our sakes to have a stable and unrestricted networking between the villages within UTP? I kept on and on wondering whether the group meeting that was scheduled tonight is on or not. Taking into factor the starting of Ramadhan, the nightly prayers of Tarawih would render the agreed time impossible. Last minute cancellations of meetings are a norm for my particular group. The best way to reach each member is still through the MiRC.

            The question comes again… why can’t the powers that be see that? For whatever bad reasons that they’ve come up to block connectivity between the different residential colleges (in our lingo that would be villages), there are ten more good reasons for it to exist. For whatever justifications for their unanimous decisions to introduce barriers between the networks of the villages, there are bound to be more grounds to allow its access.

            My point? I’m going half crazy without my daily dose of Yahoo Messenger. The least I should get is a clear line to Khuzai, who happens to be in another village. The only reasonable route would be through the MiRC. Why can’t the powers that be see this? We are used (to the point of being spoilt) to this technology where by we can simply approach students without the need to really meet. Our tasks are done more efficiently and arising questions could easily be addressed at the click of the mouse. Literally.

            The demanding time line purported by the lecturers in handing in assigned projects and tasks are efficiently handled by the divide and conquer method of task assignment. Every team member will be required to focus on different parts of the tasks and one assigned compiler will collect and compile the report. Never mind large files, it can easily be transported through the MiRC. Or maybe through the net. Provided connectivity is not barred.

            Sharing of notes and materials provided by the lecturers and the students are made possible with the MiRC. Simply set easily accessible triggers, and presto, you are ready to distribute the materials to your classmates. No matter where they live, as long as they are connected through the network, they can assess it without hassle. My notes were usually updated, up to the point where firewalls were introduced and connectivity became, almost a thing of the past. It’s a good thing I know the focal person who normally distribute the notes.

            Don’t the powers that be notice, how huge softcopies of almost anything nowadays are? Such huge files are easily transferred through the network. Almost like magic. We learn how to cut cost in whatever endeavour we get ourselves into, and seriously, MiRC is always an answer. Don’t need to bother equipping ourselves with thumb drives or cd burners for the sake of data transfer. It doesn’t take long at all. Everything is done at the click of a mouse.

            I guess, the part that truly pisses me off is the fact that I can’t get into the internet. I can’t connect to YM. Somewhat my life saviour for these past couple of months. It doesn’t necessarily need to have another person at the other end; all it comes down to is the yellow smiley face on the system tray. It simply indicates to me that I am not alone. I am not on my own. I can reach out to the outside world. Somehow, I can’t really connect with the people surrounding me. I need people on the outside, who face different challenges and live a different life. The talk exchanged are not stagnant and concerning my own small world (read: within UTPu).

            Please laa, haven’t the powers that be been young once? Have they forgotten what it was like trying to piece out their life’s direction? Don’t they crave for support from people that they love throughout that phase? I need my support!! I need my catalysts!! Everything eating me up from the inside out and I need my catalysts!! Give back the connectivity, give back my chance at sanity… I can’t live without it.            

Credit gotta go to IyzeeWallaBangBang

"Aku dah temui cinta."

              Kala hati gundah gulana,

Atau tersalah perkiraan,

                                                  Kala hati gembira,

                      Atau dikawal perasaan;

                                                                          Kala rasa diri gagal,
Dalam cabaran hidup ini,

                   Kala otak rasa bebal,

                                                         Menelaah di malam hari;
Kala rasa seorang diri,

                                                                                 Tak siapa menemani,

Kala cuba lari,

                      Dari jalan suci murni;

                                         Pasti ada yang menunjuki,

                               Tanda cinta yang hakiki,

                                                               Moga aku tak lupa diri,

                      Mudahan kekal cinta ini;

                                                       Dari-Nya datang cinta manusia,

Dan malaikat yang taat,

                                         Aku dah temui cinta,

Cinta Allah pemberi rahmat.

Deng Lufti.

YEssssssssssss… (I’m celebrating the irony of my being in UTP while others are safely back in their homes) =D and you know what… this is definitely cool… dapat jugak chance to conquer the world’s most sengalest network (after days halauing everyone back) When was the last time I got to up date my bloggie?? (err… wayyy too long I suppose since I can’t recall the last time I’ve jotted anything here)

The irony of it… after waiting months on end to access my own blog, I’m still stuck on writer’s block. Gotta ask why?? The answer, I’ve been writing too much… wayyyy too much reports (heck, that’s writing too). In a sense yes, but its more of a structured kinda writing, you don’t simply ayat what comes to mind. There’s not much room for abnormalies and impromtu alterations. All are fact guided. And I hate (mind you HATE is a STRONG WORD) the fact that people expect me to jump up and down in glee when they appoint me to write reports for the projects (pastu soh compile… damn sakit jiwa wat keje2 compiling ni) "alaa, ko kan terer menulis…"

Thank you for the err… flattering comment… but there’s a huge difference in writing a blog (or speeches for that matter) and a report… lagi2 technical report. Both need different approaches. Both need to be tackled in their own unique way… Reports are rather mundane, predictable, they don’t offer the flexiblity that I look for in free-form writing. Reports have datelines and need guidelines so as not to detrack from its intended function. Free-form writing lets you wonder in your own head, piecing out things that you want to express to the world. It doesn’t need much rhyme or reason, it is born from the need of self expression.

Tengok tu, even my choice of words are limited. The way I piece together the words, pretty much shows how sengal I’ve become =P Even I wanted to puke reading this (hoho, in all extremities, I’ve never hated my free-form pieces)

Yeah, it’s a bane, pain in d butt to write reports. I get to a point where I need to stop writing it to stop myself from covering my laptop with my own puke. Words are recycled time and again… I guess it will be a while for me to get a hang of writing my heart out again. Till that time, I’m stuck with the world’s longest write up… and to think I have to finish it within the Raya season!! God I hate this raya~~ Friends out there, turn the tide on my prediction of a mundane raya for me!!

(as usual I dunno how to end my ramblings~~)