After 2 months being blog-deprived, I checked out my favourite blogs, mostly about grouses on everyday seeming mundane life. Its just the angle of which these people chose to present about life. Its not the same old bummer-I-waked-up-called-my-girl-go-to-shitty-school kinda view. Its about issues that we hang on to but always had to hide it from seeming normal people, just so we won’t be singled out, in the case we need ‘things’ from such human beings.
Lynn, I know those close to you have said what I’m blogging now, but as a friend, I just have to say the same thing again. Yes, you are beautiful. And yes, the morons around you can never appreciate your beautiful self, no matter what. Coz they are moulded to become, well, typical. Finish school, get a degree, land a paying job, get MARRIED (haha, no. 1 hit list on most people’s priority list), have kids, grow old, die rich. You just don’t see life the same way. That’s maybe one of the reasons you’re feeling lost now. You see things different. Your priorities are different.
But you know Lynn, at least you are not in the same boat as most people in Bolehland, taken up in Siti’s WEDDING la, obsessing on Datuk K la, blowing Mawi’s break up out of proportion la, obsessing on Mat Rempit la, SMSing Akademi Fantasia winners la. So what? All those are not about us, it’s always about jaga tepi kain orang and we receive nothing in return. So who’s the better engineer now?
It may seem impossible to finish your degree off, but you’ll get there. I have to admit I was depressed on most part of final year, because I was always drilled that academic excellence comes first. I guess we were too angelic to go against that notion in school (haha aku tetap mau salahkan sekolahku). Hell, that’s what the dumb-bots in Kementrian are telling innocent kids at school. Heh. We know better. It’s just A criteria, criterion is the right word for it (kalu tak tau consult kamus). But since you’re almost at the finish line, just go for it girl. Whatever happens next, comes later. Never give up on life.
Hehe. Then comes the next blog. The writer was celebrating his 1st anniversary of singlehood, after crashing out of a relationship. Have to admit it’s cool to have people watching over you. Someone to share thoughts and inspirations with. And getting settled. Having a house with picket fence. Gentle pitter patter of tiny feet.
But the level of obsession people are having on it. It makes me cringe whenever I think of such errr… situation. For one, I just don’t see myself as a settled person. There’s just got to be some movement, some sort of uncertainty in life. I still cannot imagine myself being the contended wife, coming home from work, making dinner, obssesing (Lynn, my vocab has gone rusty) over make up and handbags and what nots. As always, it feels superficial. Typical. Ok la, lets not even come to marriage, the obsession of getting hooked up SCARES me. I barely made it through a stiffling schooling regime, nak ikat diri lagi?
I’m still young. And I have yet to see the world. And I NEED to be me. I simply have to qoute this from the blog that I’ve read; "But I don’t understand why people look at single people like they are lepers." The idea of living happily ever after on our own is such a bombastic one that it AMAZES people when they meet such people who are happy being on their own. Heh, jodoh is in God’s hand, when the time comes, the time comes. In the mean time, leave such people alone. We never know what is actually going on inside their minds.
Hehe, it’s funny when I say to people "tak kawin pun takpe" and seeing their faces screwing up and virtually seeing the insides of their minds thinking of words of wisdom on marriage to throw at me. Hehe =P
People. In and around. Never cease to AMAZE me. Not with their specialities, but with their typicalities (if ever such a word exists).
Lynn, I miss you. And I have A LOT to share with you.
